At times, it’s hard being a parent, especially during those most frightening moments when your beloved child is caught in a life or death situation and you have absolutely no power to help her or to control the situation. It’s like standing behind a locked glass door, helplessly watching as your child is being viciously attacked and no matter how hard you scream or attempt to break down the door, you can’t prevent your child from being harmed. Can you imagine watching the child you gave birth to in distress and the only thing you can do is watch? It’s a rather heart wrenching feeling, a feeling I felt as I watched Mademoiselle’s little face transform into a face I could no longer recognize.
It was a routine trip turned nightmare. Mademoiselle and I left Wholefoods, I changed her diaper (she suddenly had diarrhea), I placed her twenty-two pound body in the car seat, I started the car, and I drove to the freeway. Ten minutes later, Mademoiselle started coughing and gagging. When I looked in the rearview mirror to check on her, I noticed Mademoiselle vigorously rubbing a slightly swollen eyelid. After a few short minutes had passed, Mademoiselle started vomiting and her eyes were close to being swollen shut. Let me tell you, I freaked out and was driving like a crazy woman on the freeway. The advice nurse told me to bring Mademoiselle in immediately to see the doctor. By the time I reached the office, her eyes were completely closed and her ears were also swollen. Mademoiselle’s face looked like it had been used for Laila Ali’s punching bag. Just when I thought the situation couldn’t get any worse, Mademoiselle broke out with hives all over her face and body.
Everything happened so fast at the doctor’s office. I was crying inconsolably as I watched Mademoiselle being poked and prodded. She was given a shot, a dose of prednisone, a teaspoon of benadryl, and a breathing treatment to open her airways. In my mind, I was trying to figure out what I had done wrong. I also attempted to mentally retrace my footsteps in Wholefoods. Did Mademoiselle come in contact with eggs or nuts; these are known allergens. Just then, I remembered an employee filling empty containers in the dried bulk section, an area where people can help themselves to nuts, rice, beans, etc. I’m assuming there was a large amount of dust particles from a variety of nuts flying in the air, and Mademoiselle and I walked right through it unbeknownst to me. Damn them! I wanted to sue Wholefoods, and if the doctor, who told me that Mademoiselle had a heat rash after I told him she was allergic to nuts at four months old, had said anything to me I probably would have kicked his a**. An allergist, a few weeks later, confirmed what common sense had already told me; Mademoiselle is allergic to eggs, nuts, and dairy, and trust me, I made it a point to remind him of that when he, Mr. Well-Known-on-the- Pediatric-Board-of-Medicine, came to Children’s Hospital to discharge Mademoiselle.

To make a long story short, we were transported from the doctor’s office to the emergency room at Children’s Hospital by ambulance because the doctor felt I was in no condition to safely drive Mademoiselle to the hospital. Since the doctor called ahead we did not have to wait to be seen by an ER doctor or to get a room. On the way home from Children’s after an overnight stay, Mademoiselle was back to her old ways; dancing, snapping her fingers, and mouthing the words to her favorite cd. By the way, I highly recommend Putumayo’s music for children series. Next to her favorite audio book, Skippyjon Jones and the Big Bones (love this entire collection by Judy Schachner), Mademoiselle loves listening to songs set to the rhythmic sounds of South Africa, Trinidad, and Italy among others. I guarantee you and your kids will love Putumayo’s music, and they make music for adults too. You can listen to snippets and purchase Putumayo’s music here.
Though Mademoiselle is finally looking like herself once again and the scabs on her legs and arms have finally healed, her eyes have yet to fully recover. She still has patches of eczema on the lids and around the eyes. But, she is doing well enough for me to return to the world of blogging. Did you miss me?